The new me...

As I sit here this morning, exhausted from fighting with Kara for 3hours last night, I think of what a new day brings. Last night Jamie and Shannon helped me with a breakthrough of WHO I want to be. I don't want to be the disgusting person (and I don't mean that badly)that I was being. I was being unreasonable with myself. I wasn't letting my true self shine through. I didn't think that I was one who really said "bad" stuff about myself. But I was.

Last night as I was putting my daughter down for the 2ND TIME, I was sitting there and some bad thoughts crept in my head. Right away I did what Shannon suggested. I stopped, and said "NO, you are a beautiful woman worthy of love, praise, and honor." I was so proud of stopping myself! I'm going to try every way in the world today to be positive, even though I'm absolutely exhausted! I'm going to live up to the expectations that I need to make of myself! I'm going to start being positive. I am worthy of love, honor and praise no matter what others may think of me.

I am a hard working stay at home mom, I keep our house clean, I take care of our girls. I have a meal ready nearly every night! I love and honor my husband. I live according to the word of God (some may not think that is positive...but I do). I want to be seen as a woman far above rubies. NOT because of the size I am but because of the WOMAN I am and that I choose to be! I have empowered myself with wonderful tools given by wonderful friends. It is time for a change, and it starts today. So help me God.

I'm so sad on day's like today.

Do you ever just have those sort of days where you feel out of sorts. You feel worthless, dirty and just not good at all. Well I'm having one of them. I woke up this morning with a nagging headache. Not a bad one just enough to make you not feel very good, enough to ruin the day. Yet, I've still not over ate. Used to on days like today I would eat just because I was trying to fill a void of the bad day. I can honestly say that I haven't done that!! I'm so happy to be able to say this and to know that I am not reaching for food to cover up the way I feel. Thanks for listening!

What is going on with that stupid site???!!!

I have been with the McKenna site since it became free and I cannot wrap my head around the fact that they are going to start charging those of us to change our ways. The reason I went to the site daily was because it was free and I got the support I needed. I enjoyed the capability of being able to converse with others like me. I'm so confused right now as to why they did this and didn't inform the "older" members of this change. So we could make arrangments. I'm just really baffled now!