As I sit here this morning, exhausted from fighting with Kara for 3hours last night, I think of what a new day brings. Last night Jamie and Shannon helped me with a breakthrough of WHO I want to be. I don't want to be the disgusting person (and I don't mean that badly)that I was being. I was being unreasonable with myself. I wasn't letting my true self shine through. I didn't think that I was one who really said "bad" stuff about myself. But I was.
Last night as I was putting my daughter down for the 2ND TIME, I was sitting there and some bad thoughts crept in my head. Right away I did what Shannon suggested. I stopped, and said "NO, you are a beautiful woman worthy of love, praise, and honor." I was so proud of stopping myself! I'm going to try every way in the world today to be positive, even though I'm absolutely exhausted! I'm going to live up to the expectations that I need to make of myself! I'm going to start being positive. I am worthy of love, honor and praise no matter what others may think of me.
I am a hard working stay at home mom, I keep our house clean, I take care of our girls. I have a meal ready nearly every night! I love and honor my husband. I live according to the word of God (some may not think that is positive...but I do). I want to be seen as a woman far above rubies. NOT because of the size I am but because of the WOMAN I am and that I choose to be! I have empowered myself with wonderful tools given by wonderful friends. It is time for a change, and it starts today. So help me God.
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I'm so proud of you Girl! Let it shine, let it shine.
God Bless
Jamie
You are so loved Allison! Keep up the great work you are doing on your new path. You will reach that place of peace and wholeness. I will always be here to support you, every step of the way.
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