I want to be different on my weightloss than others...and I have. I've known about intuitively eating for a little over 2yrs now. The first I started out with just made me feel to guilty. Like I was a complete failure if I ate over just a bite or 2.
But then someone introduced me to Paul McKenna's show I Can Make You Thin. And I knew this was for me. I finally broke down just a couple of weeks ago and bought the book with the mind-programming CD included. It has been a life changing experience in the way I feel. BUT I still don't think I've added and #'s to my weightloss. I have not been on the scales in I couldn't tell you how long, but I know certain clothes are fitting better. Matter of fact I was in a size 13 jeans just the other day. I was that size when Donnie and I got married 9yrs ago. So that's a great accomplishment, so what in God's name is wrong with my mind and the way I'm thinking. I'm absolutely miserable some days. And not just with the way I'm eating, but with everything going on around me.
I'm over the way I feel, I pray, I meditate, I have quiet time and it still sometimes does absolutely no good.
But then I have these great friends on the McKenna board that have such awesome words of inspiration. Not to mention they've had weightloss too. I just want to feel the way they type on their post sometimes KWIM? Have I mentioned that in the last 2yrs I've lost 55-60lbs, varying at times. Why can't I be happy with that, and just move on. I love this way of eating, it doesn't limit any certain food and it has motivated me to want to get off my butt.
I've started walking at least 2 miles 4 times a week. I just can't understand why my weightloss and me are struggling and others are losing. I've slowed down, I've picked and chose what to eat, I've ate conciously, and I've even stopped when I THOUGHT I was full! What in the crap is holding me back from that thinner me????!!!???? We'll see how far I fair with this blog!
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I hope you continue to write and share your experience Allison because what you have to share is of true value. You have accomplished great things. The release of 60 lbs. is an incredible achievement! You never cease to inspire with the telling of your personal story. Continue to share. You story needs to be heard.
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